Nila

This has all been said before, whether you thought I meant it or not, despite every stupid, idiotic thing I have said. But I care about everything and anything you've ever done in the past, to me or not, either way I'm affected by it, but hey, that's not your fault, it's mine. It was my own curiosity to go rummaging through your things that got me hurt.
Sure I found some dark secrets and then some, but I did it to get to know you better. Because not everyone wants to share certain things and I didn't necessarily want to drag it out of you with some consequential argument. I know, I still have things you don't know about, if not worse than what you have done or had happen to you. From what I found, I still love you and want to be with you, as long as you never resorted back to your past in any conversation with me unless it was some joyous occasion between friends and or family.
I'm sorry I showed my jealous colors, but I had mentioned to you since we started living together, albeit it was never mandatory, I would have liked it if you notified me if you were going to be home late or at least invited me to hangout with your friends as to keep me from worrying.
I'm sorry I didn't have a great job at the time nor did I make an attempt to find a better one. I'm sorry I was never great with finances or saving up. I wasn't sure you loved me anymore, so I started spending the majority of my money to buy you back. I'm sorry I made love to you or had sexual intercourse with you frequently and I apologize for making you seem as though you felt used in both monetary and sex departments.
I may not be the best person for the real world, but damn me for trying, let alone being faithful and loyal. I'm sure you have the side of your story as well and I'd feel down right disgusted to hear it because of truths, but I'd prefer the truth. And the only truth I have for you, whether you know it anymore or not is that I still love you, and will do my best to please you in any and all ways possible.
There's not a day, night, girl I've seen or been with that cannot seem to keep you from my mind, yet it's been since January of 2013. I've been caught in your web ever since 2010 and as much as it sucks being stuck in this mindset, no others company compares to yours, I love you like no other. You truly will be the death of me, self inflicted or not.